i havent been religious for most of my life, only in recent years have i considered being religious. its strange to go from full atheist to atheistic religion, as i thought there was only two options, either atheist or theistic. but i had found a way to be religious without believing there is a god or higher power. ive always shaken my head at that thought, a god existing. to me it felt like that idea removes our specialness as humans. but at the same time i dont believe humans to be much better than animals. consiencesness is a gift to have but there is also downsides. we all share the earth, us and animals. we should be seen as equals in that aspect. these beliefs of mine is what has drawn me to satanism, im still very new to it all tho. it seems to align with my outlook on life quite perfectly. tho i do believe in some kind of supernatural aspect to life. i believe that if u believe something hard enough it might as well be real. because its truly real to u so who am i to tell u otherwise? thats why i still respect GOOD religous people. i think they can exist in all religions. all communities have bad eggs, but they also have good eggs. when i disrespect god and christianity i mean no harm to the good people, i believe in freedom of religion. it would be foolish to try and get rid of them, it would never happen. i hate bad people and bad beliefs. christianity has lead to many bad teachings, corrupting the mind of otherwise kind people. though certan satanists have done bad aswell. i dont believe them to be REAL satanists personally. i think anyone who does bad with religion is missing the point of life. ive found myself scoffing at people who believe in gods back then, ive learned better now than to judge people like that. i like defying god purposefully. im a full on sinner, and i think thats what it means to be human. i think id feel foolish if i tried to run away from our natural habits. not to say bad habits dont exist, but one must recognise they are natural anyways and make us human. being a human being is no crime. i never wish to become holy as i believe it removes my whole point of existence. in the end i believe what i want and i wouldnt want it any other way. if i have such freedom to believe and do what i want others deserve such treatment aswell. we are all equal yet all special and unique. sometimes i do second guess myself, is my way of thinking cowardly? to believe everyone is perfect as we are? are we really good if we can and do cause so much harm? im not sure. all i can do is believe in myself and hope. ah yes, i didnt specify it very well but i believe in atheistic satanism specifically. i havent been changed all that much by it though, i already believed all these things. i dont think religion should really change u completely. well, unless u are terrible and turning to religion makes u become better as a person. but even then it wouldnt change u completely, i think all humans have some goodness in them but they are led astray by certain things.